In Psalms 119 it talks about how Gods word is a lamp unto our feet... but I often feel like I keep stubbing my toes or hitting my shins. I feel like I am just stumbling along and I often fall.

When I first moved to Russia one of the hardest things for me was to walk down the street. It was so embarrassing... I hated going out, because I kept stumbling along down the sidewalk and everyone would laugh at me. Every time I was determined to watch my steps more carefully and the first few were OK... but then I got distracted and there I would be stumbling along... sometimes falling all the down or just to me knees. A friend would walk beside me marching... saying Rachel be like a flamingo... pick up your knees... it was good advice and it would send me into hysterics as he tried to show me how a flamingo would walk! 

Now, walking down the street has become second nature to me. I don't often stumble, I know the streets well and they are not a challenge. BUT it took a lot of practice for me to really learn how to pick me feet up when I walk. Never before had I struggled with such uneven walking surfaces...

God is so much more patient with me then I am with myself. I think I should know these things... as to what they are I am not so sure but I should know them! Such a big head I have! God is patient with me as he holds my hand, helping me walk and waits for me, helping me up when I fall. Sometimes I try to help myself up after I fall. I look for something else, something easier! I see that it looks strong and I grab on... but it crumbles in my hands and I am down again.

The only place to put my trust is in Him. His arms are strong enough to help me up again.

Journeying on!